In Honor of my Babies:

My babies are turning 5 tomorrow.

FIVE.

I don’t know why, but I can’t wrap my brain around this fact.

It can’t possibly be.

Yet it is.

So, in honor of my little babies, I give you this:  {the first kiss}

Our first kiss was unexpected.
It was surreal.
It was one of the most beautiful feelings I had ever experienced.

You might think that this was my first baby. But it wasn’t. My most memorable first kiss belonged to my last born, my 5th child. I remember it most vividly because I didn’t take it for granted like I did with my first three.

Emotionally, I was a different person than I had been before, and I’d realized that getting pregnant doesn’t guarantee a healthy baby 9 months later. It was different because I didn’t actually believe that my babies had been delivered, alive, until that moment.

As I lay on the operating table getting put back together, I heard their cries, but they were in unison so I thought something terrible had happened to my last, my John. I know why I thought John must be the silent one but I was wrong, so wrong.

He was the “healthy” one…..as healthy as a 33 weeker can be, and he was the first to be brought to me. Before the surgery I had resigned myself to not being able to touch or hold my babies, so it was an unexpected gift, a granting of something I can’t define when the neonatalogist brought me John. I kissed him and knew that my life had changed forever. He was itty bitty. So tiny, yet seemed so robust. For the first time in months I felt a real glimmer of hope. I felt sure that I would actually bring my boys home, despite the odds.

When Jacob was brought to me the kiss was different. It was a kiss of understanding. A kiss that seemed to know that he was ill and would have a harder road to travel than his brother.

But John’s kiss…….that was the kiss that told me everything would be alright, that our lives had been changed forever.

I’m thankful for that first kiss, a precious gift I’ll always hold dear.

You can read more about the journey to get them here, here.

I’m thankful for my babies.  Oh, so thankful.  Even if they are growing up way too quickly on me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BOYS!

About Angie

Angie is a CRAFT dabbling, recipe making, WORD loving, sunshine hording, book DEVOURING, Mama to a lot! She's kind of in love with Instagram right now, so if you want her attention, go find here there. {smiling}

Comments

  1. 1
    Queen of the Crazies says:

    FIVE?? Wow, I have been reading here a long time! Happy 5th!

  2. 2
    Kristina P. says:

    This is a beautiful tribute, Angie. Happy birthday to your boys!

  3. 3

    Aw, I can totally relate to this. What a precious moment.

    And a Happy Birthday to your Babies. 🙂

  4. 4
    Robin from Israel
    Twitter: RobinTA
    says:

    Happy birthday to your two beautiful miracles.

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  5. 5
    Teri
    Twitter: beadalicious
    says:

    Beautifully written, thank you for sharing here. Wishing you and yours many many happy days!

  6. 6
    Charissa
    Twitter: squirrelfactor
    says:

    I went through a rough pregnancy with my youngest as well and he was born at 28 weeks. This brought tears to my eyes. Happy Birthday!

  7. 7
    Charissa
    Twitter: squirrelfactor
    says:

    OK, a) totally typed my twitter name wrong. Fixed that here.
    b) my son’s story is at http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/levimatthew

  8. 8
    Dumb Mom
    Twitter: thenagainphoto
    says:

    They look like such whipper snappers you’d never even know how hard it was at first. Unless you are a classic trained blogger stalk like myself, and then you do! So happy to see your boys doing so well! Happy birthday to all of you!

  9. 9

    Time just goes by so quickly. Every birthday is certainly a treasure. A celebration of life but also that you’ve made it this far and can keep pressing on!

    Happy birthday to those sweet little guys.

  10. 10

    Happy Birthday John and Jacob!

    (you’re officially getting old. just so ya know;)

  11. 11
    JoeyfromSC
    Twitter: JoeyfromSC
    says:

    Such cute pics! They do grow up so fast! Happy early birthday to your precious little ones!

  12. 12
    Aging Mommy says:

    Happy Birthday to your wonderful boys! Have a fabulous day celebrating.

  13. 13
    Midwest Mommy says:

    I stumbled upon baby pictures of my four year old tonight. I swear I just took most of them yesterday.
    Happy Birthday to your little guys!

  14. 14
    scrappysue says:

    awwwwwwwwww – sniff sniff. happy birthday gorgeous boys!

  15. 15
    Allison @ Alli n Son
    Twitter: Alli_n_Son
    says:

    Happy birthday to your boys! What a beautiful story.

  16. 16
    LadyD
    Twitter: LadyD_Books
    says:

    Wonderful heart-felt writing, great tribute to your boys. You are so blessed and life is indeed precious! I enjoyed reading your post, thank you.

  17. 17
    Allison@Slice of Heaven
    Twitter: Tiggsntx
    says:

    Angie,

    You got me all misty eyed with that one. Happy Birthday to your cute little redheads! What a milestone.

    Sorry for my bloggy absence. I’ve missed all of you. But I am back! Stop by my blog for my blogoversary giveaway – A Family Tree Necklace. http://scoopofreality.blogspot.com/2010/11/blogoversary-giveaway-family-tree.html

    Have a blessed Thanksgiving.

  18. 18

    Happy Birthday!!! Beautifully written!

  19. 19
    Genny
    Twitter: GennyHeikka
    says:

    What a beautiful story, Angie. Happy Birthday to your precious babies!

  20. 20
    Brenda
    Twitter: brendaparaguay
    says:

    Its hard to believe that they are 5! Happy birthday to your babies!

  21. 21
    Erin
    Twitter: ErinsMiracles
    says:

    Wow Angie….FIVE!!! What a fantastic road, you had me in tears reading your post, reminded me about my own almost 33 weeker that was born, and I only had ONE!

    Phew! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

  22. 22
    Holly at Tropic of Mom says:

    Ah, so sweet! And happy birthday to them.

  23. 23
    beth aka confusedhomemaker
    Twitter: beths_confusion
    says:

    Happy Birthday to them! I hope they had a spectacular day 🙂

  24. 24
    Michelle
    Twitter: flyinggiggles
    says:

    Beautiful post and yes, they do grow up too quick!

  25. 25
    The Drama Mama
    Twitter: poopscoopinmama
    says:

    Oh this post made me tear up. I remember those NICU days, the moment of twin birth, and then the wonder of their health, the anticipation of them coming home….

    Happy Thanksgiving!

  26. 27
    Nicole@ Moments that Define Life
    Twitter: MTDLBlog
    says:

    Oh Angie! Tears over here (now on the East Coast) my friend….tears of knowing exactly how you feel. Tears of joy for Jacob & John’s healthy,happy lives. What a journey! I’m so grateful to know you. You are a remarkable woman and mother. I’m so grateful this Thanksgiving that I can call you my friend. What on earth would I have done without your story and support? Thank you for sharing it! It carried me through and will no doubt carry other Momo Mom’s through. You are remarkable. I dread and look forward to the day that my girls are five. Tears I tell ya! Tears!

  27. 28
    Becca - Our Crazy Boys
    Twitter: beccascrazyboys
    says:

    They look just as precious now as they did then.

    Happy Birthday!!

  28. 29

    Amazing isn’t it!?! I can’t even imagine what that delivery was like for you. How scary to be carrying babies for so long and really have no idea whether or not they’re going to survive. I love how full of life they are now. Such cuties!

  29. 30
    jennyleite says:

    Crying, big ole crocodile tears!! Those boys of your are precious miracles. I am so happy they entered your life when they did so you could enter mine 🙂

  30. 31
    Krystyn
    Twitter: SeriousKrystyn
    says:

    Happy birthday to your sweet, not so little boys.