Do you see where this is headed? A glimpse of my kids each friday until they are all used up. Translation: 3 weeks to go. I’m original. I know. So, this Friday is ALL Jacob.
Jacob was my constant when I was in the hospital being monitored before he was born. For 10 straight weeks 24 hours a day, his heart rate was steady and variable and beautiful. Unlike his brothers’. He measured bigger than John via ultrasound and so I had this false sense of security before he was born. I thought he’d be bigger, stronger, healthier. But he wasn’t. Well, he was a little bigger, but he was anemic, so pale and sickly looking. He also had breathing problems in the beginning. Once in the NICU he was put on CPAP but then had to go on the ventilator which almost broke my heart. I would go visit my little peanuts in the NICU and Jacob just didn’t seem well. Not that NICU babies ever are, right? I worried about both of my 33 weekers, but Jacob really scared me.