This Mother’s Day will mark 28 Mother’s Days that I have been forced to acknowledge/celebrate without my mom.
28 years she’s been gone. It seems like an eternity. I’ve forgotten so many things about her over the years. Like how she smelled or exactly how her hands looked as she performed motherly tasks for me constantly. I don’t particularly remember the shade of her hair, or what her eyes looked like. I don’t even remember her smile, really, without the aid of photos. I do remember how she made me feel though, and that’s something that time can never take away from me. It’s that feeling of love that will never fade, no matter how much time slips by.
I’m grateful for those feelings, and for photos that remind me of the shape of her body or the shade of her hair. And, I’m thankful for home videos that show me my mom in action. Moving, breathing, talking, walking, laughing, crying, reading, smiling.
This Mother’s Day I plan on showing my children my mother. In action. I’ll be holding my children extra close, thankful that I’ve had the time with my children that I have, looking forward to so much more.
I’m thankful for my mother.
I really was blessed to have such a wonderful one. I wish a lot of things, but I really wish my children could have known her. Luckily with the aid of a little technology, they’ll be able to see her in a way they never have before, and I’ll get to enjoy the memories with them.
That’s a whole lot to be grateful for!