My Mom, On Mother’s Day

This Mother’s Day will mark 28 Mother’s Days that I have been forced to acknowledge/celebrate without my mom.

28 years she’s been gone. It seems like an eternity.  I’ve forgotten so many things about her over the years.  Like how she smelled or exactly how her hands looked as she performed motherly tasks for me constantly.  I don’t particularly remember the shade of her hair, or what her eyes looked like.  I don’t even remember her smile, really, without the aid of photos.  I do remember how she made me feel though, and that’s something that time can never take away from me.  It’s that feeling of love that will never fade, no matter how much time slips by.

I’m grateful for those feelings, and for photos that remind me of the shape of her body or the shade of her hair.  And, I’m thankful for home videos that show me my mom in action.  Moving, breathing, talking, walking, laughing, crying, reading, smiling.

This Mother’s Day I plan on showing my children my mother. In action.  I’ll be holding my children extra close, thankful that I’ve had the time with my children that I have, looking forward to so much more.

I’m thankful for my mother.

Just thankful.

I really was blessed to have such a wonderful one.  I wish a lot of things, but I really wish my children could have known her.  Luckily with the aid of a little technology, they’ll be able to see her in a way they never have before, and I’ll get to enjoy the memories with them.

That’s a whole lot to be grateful for!

Comments

  1. 1

    says

    How sad that your mother passed away so long ago. It is nice though that through technology you can share her with your children.

  2. 4

    says

    Oh, it sounds like she was wonderful. It’s hard to lose a parent. I lost my dad 6 years ago and it’s been rough.

    stopped by from mama kat’s

  3. 7

    Milz says

    I showed Dru the video and he was like ‘That’s Angies mother? Wow’
    Anyway Angie sorry.
    In a lot of ways I feel the same way about father’s day as you do about mothers.
    Although my years are fewer.
    At least we have a belief system that helps.

  4. 8

    Tiffany says

    Angie,
    Thats amazing, I have never heard your Mom’s voice. I am sorry Mothers Day brings a day that can never have a fight with Jeff about who’s Mom gets to have the day. I love you so very much. Thanks for always being such a good example and staying close to our Heavenly Father. You have became such an amazing Mom and such a role model to others, esp me. Have a great Mother’s Day!
    Love Tiff

  5. 13

    says

    Giving you an extra hug, and wishing you a wonderful Mother’s Day with your family. I can only imagine how difficult it would be to lose your mom, I’m glad you found a way to share her with your kids. You must have been so young when she passed. I do love how you focused on how she made you feel, because I think that is the most important gift we could give to anyone.

  6. 15

    says

    This is so special! I LOVED seeing that video of your Mom. It’s nice to have something like that to share with your kids. And that part you talked about not remembering specifics…that’s the one thing that really makes me sad. I feel the same way about my Dad. I remember really really adoring him…but sometimes I can’t remember exactly why or what he did specifically that made me feel so special. I hate that.

  7. 17

    says

    Sending you a big virtual HUG across the US! You must have been so young when your mom passed away. Your video montage is very special, I’m sure your kids will enjoy seeing it. Enjoy you day on Sunday–you deserve it!

  8. 18

    JoeyfromSC says

    Hugs!! I can totally relate…I miss my mom every day! I too treasure the pics I have..Sadly, I have no video..I am trying to dig up some vids from our former church that I know she was in.

    I’ll be thinking of you on Mother’s day!

  9. 19

    says

    I’m so sorry that you’ve had to spend so much time away from her. I’m sure the perspective you have will pass onto your children not to take anyone or any moment with your loved ones for granted. I have to say from the pics I’ve seen of you, you look just like her. Thank God for the videos and pictures. It’s times like these I’m reminded to not be prideful towards my mother (even though she can be so stubborn!)

  10. 25

    says

    I’m so sorry for your loss! What a precious gift that you have those images captured for you and your kiddos to enjoy. : )

  11. 26

    says

    So sweet, Angie.
    Your mama must have been one special lady to make you into such an amazing mommy 😉
    Happy Mother’s Day!!

  12. 27

    says

    Mother’s Day is the hardest when there’s someone you would give anything to celebrate with and you can’t. Sending you peace and strength! Hug those kiddos and know that your mom’s spirit is there. With you. With them.

  13. 28

    Kirsten says

    Precious. So fun to see your mom and hear her voice, I loved it. She is beautiful and seemed reserved with the camera on her. I loved seeing you on her lap, totally precious and pulled at my heart strings. Sending lots of love to you Angie. Aching for the years that you have missed her and loving the promise of Easter.

    Miss you friend, and totally wished we lived closer.

  14. 30

    says

    What a special post and a wonderful way to share your mom with your kids. I had no idea that she had passed away…and that you were so young. 🙁 Definitely makes me want to hold my kids closer too. Each day really is a gift.

  15. 31

    says

    Although you mother passed away in along time, but she still live in your heart and she is always beside you
    Your mother is so beautiful and it’s a unique picture of tou

  16. 32

    says

    I’m so sorry to hear that your mother passed away for a long time.
    This is your special gift your mother left to you.She’s so beautiful

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