Scary Mommy Here

Gone. Can you imagine?

I knew it was coming, as I made the switch from good old Blogger to the new shiny world of WordPress. I was told the transition would take a few moments though, but somehow it ended up taking several hours. Several endless hours during which I sat at my computer, maniacally hitting refresh every three seconds. The thought of the pages somehow being lost in cyber space forever terrified me. The countless hours I’ve spent here. The memories I’ve documented. What if they all just disappeared? It was simply unthinkable.

What began as a baby book of sorts has turned into so much more. A new way to look at life, with humor rather than frustration. For someone who never enjoyed writing before, my daily entries became my salvation. A way to feel not so alone in the day to day tribulations of motherhood. To get support and understanding from people all over the world whom I never would have otherwise met. The line between real life and blog life is now so blurred that my friendships overlap between the two. I used to preface stories about people here with “my blog friend…” but now it’s just “my friend.” It’s pretty amazing.

My blog finally reappeared, and I let out an enormous sigh of relief. As I’d approached my one year “bloggyversary” the previous week, I found myself growing tired of posting, exhausted trying to keep up with all of my buddies and just all around burnt out. I contemplated just giving up once I hit the one year mark. I’d had enough. But when I faced the possibility of having it all disappear, I realized just how important it is to me. I may not post everyday now or visit everyone quite as often as I’d like, but I have no plans on abandoning my blog. It means way too much to me. And I’m so glad to have realized it.